JOSIE OCHOA MEZA
Certified Master Emotional Healing Coach
HOW DID I GET TO WHERE I AM AT?
Sinking through the many layers of depression, to have lost all deemed to be of most value to me (my mother & the love of my life) has been the invitation to the next phase of my awareness ...
On December of 2010, I executed a Choice: to either end my life or commit to living my OWN life, not live to please others... So, I chose ME, which was the very decision needed to increase my vibrational frequency & level of awareness. Through that wave of inspiration, on January of 2011, I followed my "yesses". Finally, establishing a relationship with myself. Opening doors to unveil Josie's heart desires. On January of 2013, I was guided to teach a self-empowering class with the objective to become self-realized, by virtue, I became the very byproduct of my own teachings and discovered a hidden talent. Apparently, I knew how to paint beautifully, where I was able to auction my art to raise funds for an under served cause I was a part of.
Wheel of Co-Creation class I taught in 2013
heel of Co-Creation class I taught in 2013
Some of The Wheel of Co-Creation Family in 2013
"The Human, Is Like A Caterpillar, Right When It Thinks It's Faced The End, It Transforms Into A Greater Self- A Butterfly." -Josie
This painting was auctioned to help fund a retirement home in Jaripo, Michoacán, Mexico. Thank you, to the amazing human that help make this a reality, Michael Blohm. I'm FOREVER grateful for your loving donation.
MOTHER EARTH, THE MOON
"As She's Able To Give Birth To A Child, She's Able To Birth A New, Evolved and Compassionate World."-Josie
This painting was auctioned to help fund a retirement home in Jaripo, Michoacán, Mexico. Thank you to the amazing human that help make this a reality, Rico Rivera. I'm FOREVER grateful for your loving donation. — with Rico Rivera.
"When one achieves authentic self-love, your reality becomes illuminated and set free." -Josie
HONORED to announce I've donated this painting(created by me) for auctioning, to a non-profit organization in support of STOPPING Human Trafficking(Starting Point, where love starts), that my BEAUTIFUL, TALENTED and COMPASSIONATE friend Shamari Lathan, is a part of!!!
In addition, I was intuitively guided to leave everything behind and move to Mexico to take care of my sickly aunt whom inspired an internal desire to register a retirement home/house of needy, into a non-profit organization, in the same town she lived in (I yearned to make a difference in the world and this was the opportunity for my contribution).
My Auntie Whom Inspired The Retirement Home in Mexico.
My Aunt, Isabel Meza Gonzalez, Passed Away From Cancer on January of 2014.
Our First Guest in The "House of Needy". Amador Garcia Ruiz.
A Morning of Up-keeping. (Estancia Jaripo, Mexico, 2014)
"So Fresh & So Clean, Clean!" (Estancia Jaripo, Mexico, 2014)
Took A Trip to Tocumbo, Michoacan, Mexico. (2014)
Once I moved on January of 2014 (1 year later), I started the process to manifest this project, by gathering all board members needed. Simultaneously, starting a book club where we discussed the book, 'The Four Agreements". Amazingly enough, several people attended, considering it's a small village/town and typically the residents are not open-minded enough to accept change. Upon the completion of the book, the next step was to implement action by executing community service activities, everyday of the week. We as a community:
- Visited & prayed upon the sickly.
- Gathered as a choir to sing and play music with the objective to bring out and connect with the child-self.
- We cleaned and maintained certain areas of the town to bring awareness.
- Meditated for the more "opened" and aware individuals to connect with our inner truths.
- Worked hand-in-hand with the towns Mayor, to enforce public service upgrades.
- Everyday, @ 12 noon, I'd announce over the town's intercom an inspirational quote of the day to increase peoples faith.
- Motivated my dear uncle to cure his alcohol addiction. I inspired him to not only stop consuming alcohol for a whole year, but to get a job, open a bank account, purchase his first computer, attend school to take computer classes, with the objective to get certified, (I was so proud beyond measure, I was in "AWE").
- We attracted our very first guest in our retirement home, a homeless whom was not self- sufficient and in desperate need of 3rd party assistance.
Choir Time. Releasing The Child Within. (Mexico, 2014)
During a Class in Mexico. (2014)
During a Class in Mexico. (2014)
Praying For The Sickly. Community Service. (Mexico, 2014)
Visiting The Sickly. Community Service. (Jaripo, Mexico, 2014)
Working Together, Teaching Our Youth To Have Our "Home" Clean. (Mexico, 2014)
Community Service. (Mexico, 2014)
Love in Action. Community Service. (Mexico, 2014)
Mothers Working As a Unit To Keep Our Pedestrians Safe While Walking on The Roadside. Community Service. (2014)
Community Service. (Jaripo, Michoacan, Mexico, 2014)
Community Service. Maintenance/Cleaning The Town. (Jaripo, Michoacan, 2014)
Community Service. Town Maintenance. (Mexico 2014)
The Mayor of the town asked if I was up for the challenge considering the project was not complete, my response? "Yes"! I did everything for him; fed him, bathed him and became his best friend...Witnessing all that was achieved, I felt I was at my Highest point of success. I felt EMPOWERED, but paradoxically, setting myself up to FACE my darkest aspects, the aspects I've deemed to never be associated with. The ones you unconsciously hide deep under the rug due to immense fear.
So, what did I face?
A Beautiful Depressing Masterpiece of a MESS.
Around October of 2014, this appeared opportunity to reach my next level of freedom and unconditional love, began to turn south. All of my perceived achievements suddenly began to fall apart, one after the other. The last straw was when I found Amador dead in his room, under my care. This lead me to drop into a space many call "the dark night of the soul" and into the path of my 2nd deep depression, one I thought I would not recover from.
Confusion surrounded me. Why did the universe allow this experience to unfold in this form- if I've only answered and followed the "call" as an obedient student of God?? I was even shown and assured through my dream state that the transition to Mexico was my "train ticket" to a deeper level of freedom and purpose.
How could this have happened?
I felt BETRAYED BY GOD AND MOST IMPORTANTLY- BY MY OWN INTUITION. I felt forsaken, unable to trust myself, let alone anyone or anything outside of me. I felt like a complete victim , asking why the universe was conspiring against me when I've been nothing but deserving!
When submerged in despair, cornered and unable to continue to run from myself, I made the choice to surrender, face myself and sit with my pain, allow my undivided presence to be with the dark side of "Who I Am". To FEEL and converse with those fractured forsaken parts of me. To my surprise, they held so much wisdom to reveal, wisdom I never would have known of if this very strategic "masterpiece of a mess" wouldn't have collapsed my whole foundation. I suppose I needed to set myself up, to SEE my own conditions & restrictions. To pierce through this vicious cycle of a pattern I've been subconsciously operating from all of my life, thus creating the very same emotional outcome to every story.
This indeed marked the beginning of my emotional integration journey, rebuilding a more solid foundation, one that will successfully sustain the next phase of my personal evolution, achieving my greatest awareness YET!
By thoroughly understanding through felt perception, I wasn't authentically loving ALL OF ME. I only loved, accepted and claimed the aspects within that spoke and emanated Love & Light. I was self-identified with only being LOVE & Inspiration, that I rejected, abandoned and SHAMED the parts of me that spoke the polar opposite- darkness & depression. I observed I only wanted to live when things felt good, BUT depart from this world when things felt dense and dark. My Self-love was conditional! How though, if I so claimed to love myself unconditionally? Who would have known the lie I was operating under if it wasn't for this mess…
As I began to break down ancient barriers I've built since childhood against everything fueling my Shame, my emotional body, through sensations, began to experience immense relief. I knew in my core that something monumental was transmuting within. I was witnessing the great power of integrating and merging with those aspects I've severed, judged and condemned. I was experiencing the physicality of wholeness, gifting me a deep sensation of satisfaction. At the end of the day, that's all we are looking for, the ingredients to feeling complete and joyous. But, that does require a new level of vulnerability, one that pulls you back into time to "rescue" the very parts of oneself that have been traumatized and forsaken- to then integrate/restore them to real time, which is to the NOW.
In conclusion, The 2nd fall of depression was unmistakably my ticket to the next layer of awareness, setting the stage for a deeper, more authentic relationship with myself, as I learned to face and accept my depression.